Who do you pray to?

Ever since I became angry and started praying to God, I have continued doing so. I have a lot to pray about these days. The thing is, I pray by naming him God. Not Krishna – God. God somehow seems less… personal. Less scary, because there is no attributes to God. God seems more of a force, than a person, therefore easier.

Krishna probably have other things on his mind, and the little prayers of me shouldn’t matter to him. He is in another mood which I don’t fathom, but I know that my prayers to him is an intrusion. But calling him God, despite the safety of it probably isn’t correct. So who should I pray to? Narayana? Is that the name I should use when I pray?I have no relation to Narayana. How should I understand Narayana? Who should I pray to about my little life with my conditioned thoughts?

After I started praying semi-exclusively to God, something went missing. My prayers to Gurudeva. I talk so very little to him now. Again, I don’t want to bother Gurudeva with my small minded, conditioned thoughts and desires, fears etc. But then the whole conversation is lost. For better or worse, my small minded, conditioned prayers are a relationship. At least it’s an act of approaching my Gurudeva.

I don’t know how to pray anymore. Or – I do pray, but how do I do it? To whom? With what?

10 thoughts on “Who do you pray to?

  1. “Gaura-Nityananda hear the prayers of their sadhakas, even those who have no ruci”

    “Visvambhara is Krishna himself yet present in the world for sadhakas in his acarya-lila, and as his other self, Sri Nityananda Prabhu, he is present that much more, with both hands stretched out to all materially conditioned souls.”

  2. There are a couple of evening prayers that come to mind. One is a prayer that is sometimes recited after putting the deities to rest. In short, (in my interpretation) it says: “Vishnu, please accept all that I have done today as if it was the best kind of worship. Janardana, whatever I have done in the right spirit, please fan the spark that inspired that.” So, in this case, Vishnu is the name for the mother-side, the unconditional love: whatever I have done, please see it as good. Janardana is the name for the father-side, conditional love: If I have actually done anything good, please encourage that in me. We need both to grow, unconditional and conditional love.

    There is also a prayer for going to rest oneself, where the name Narayana is used: “Narayana, whatever I have felt, thought, said and done today I offer to you, just as it is.”

  3. You may also just as well say Gurudeva or Krishna and the prayer will get as close to them as it does. Start with the goal in mind. The first chapter of the Gita is called Visada Yoga, the yoga of despair. Arjuna was feeling despair, and by turning to Krishna with it, it became yoga.

  4. Beautiful prayers!

    I have been contemplating that may be when we pray, it’s paramatma that hears it (and deal with it in appropriate manner)?

    I would not be comfortable with addressing my conditioned prayers to Gaura-nitai. It’s seems more appropriate to address them using the songs of our acaryas. I have also contemplated that a lot of the reason it seems wrong, is because of the relation we have/need to develop with them. When we learn a little about their purpose and what our relation to them should be, it really seems wrong to talk with them about my fear of finances, friend/family issues and the likes.

    But paramatma – he guides us on our path. He seems like the appropriate person to address?

    • I think I kind of have by thanking him for it, and prayed that this apartment will help me evolve spiritually. Though I do feel a bit ambivalent about it – because I use this apartment for non-spiritual things like watching TV. But offering my apartment and everything is may be a beginning of spiritualizing it, and therefore beneficial. Though, even if any financial concerns will relate to him, I would still worry because it’s my nature.

      • Oh, sure, go on worrying. I just meant that such prayers to him would become more relevant.

    • 🙂

      You wrote that you did not want to bother for example Sri Sri Gaura-Nitai with financial problems. But if you offer your apartment to Sri Guru, Gaura Nitai, Radha Krishna, then your apartment is a temple.

      Once when Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati was on his death bed, some disciples came to him to ask him about some financial details regarding the temple. Srila Sridhara Maharaj thought that might be inappropriate, but an older god brother corrected him, explaining that temple finances is Srimati Radharani’s department.

      So, financial concerns would then be of more direct relevance to your Gurudeva.

      Hope I’m not going too far with my imagination here. 🙂

      • I want my apartment (and me) to be a temple, but isn’t that a bit like diksa? You take diksa, and work to complete it hopefully before dying. (Diksa isn’t complete until we receive our siddha-deha.)

        That was a nice story – but I thought Laksmi devi was the one dealing with finances? Or am I thinking too much (which I think I’m doing in this whole who to pray to blog entry).

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