Setting my intention

In the presence of Bhakti-devi there is firm faith, enthusiasm and determination.
Reflections on the sacred teaching II: Madhurya-kadambini

Dear Bhakti-devi,

Thank you for refusing to give me bhakti. I was not aware that I was using my desire for bhakti for sense gratification. By refusing me, you allowed me to figure out what I was doing wrong.

I don’t know how to remove this weed from my bhajana, but I now understand where to begin. I have to set my intention whenever I do something. So from now on I will make this prayer everytime I try to do something: “Dear God, please let my reading/gayatri/japa/etc. help me widen my understanding/knowledge, and let it help me in develop my relation to Radha-Krishna.”

I now understand that I have to develop this quality of intention in my bhajana. Thank you for refusing me, and please continue to refuse me as long it helps me deepen my bhajana. This was a very instructive lesson, and I like it.

Haridasi

2 thoughts on “Setting my intention

  1. Thank you for sharing this. It is confusing for me, this paradox. There is all this talk about ecstasy and we are not supposed to enjoy it. 🙂

  2. Yes, Exactly !
    In the poem this was called the kitchen religion, but I think it could also be called the feeling religion. There’s all these talk of feelings all the time, prema and the different levels of prema, greed, rasa… there’s just feelings, feelings all the time.

    But mind you – it has to be the correct feeling, and all the other “bad” feelings must be weeded out. But that’s what attracts us in the first place. We wouldn’t be attracted to Krishna consciousness in the first place if we didn’t want to enjoy it.

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