I don’t like myself right now. I don’t like this person.
I don’t like that I’m not working on my sadhana. I don’t like that I’m not working on progressing spiritually. Sure, I’m staying connected, even if it means just one maha-mantra a day, but there is no realizations. Nothing. This is not the person that I am.
My faith is the most beautiful about me, and its not even mine. It was given to me by gurudeva. This faith is still there, shining so very brightly. Still I’m so out of touch with it.
I miss being a devotee. I really need to be under Didis guidance and supervision right now.
This is one of the reasons why it’s so important to be under guidance. Sometimes we become lost and we need a little help on the way.