Oracle of Rama

Often when insecurity plagues us or we would like to know our future, have answered some struggle we go through or just plain know what will happen the next few months we turn to oracles of some kind wether they be astrology, tarot, healers whatever. In vedic tradition we have Joytish.

Believing in karma opens up for sooth sayings of different kinds since karma means that there are circumstances that are set in our life like what kind of family we are born to, sickness we have to endure etc. For us very little is accidental and our free will boils down to the choices we make which in turn generate new karma.

I have purchased a horoscope every year on my birthday and have found it interesting. It has for the most part been able to predict the large layers of my life except this year which have really been anything but what is written in that horoscope. I have tarot cards I have used, though I haven’t used it for years now.

I find a lot of enjoyment in these things. It’s fun and it helps me just relax a bit when I need some reassurance. I don’t take it seriously, but still there is a part of me that believe a little bit. A part that takes the general direction seriously even when there is a bigger part of my mind saying: This is ridiculous. But often I find myself needing reassurance, and these things give that. It gives me a peace of mind when that said mind is a bit troubled.

I have left the Tarot cards, because I have found an even better tool – The Oracle of Rama. The cards use the life of Rama to answer questions. Rama’s life takes many turns from fortune to misfortune. Something that can seem very beneficial turns out to be the opposite. There are great victory, and great heartbreak and everything in between.

The Oracle of Rama has been created by stringing gems of destiny with the thread of faith.

The Oracle of Rama 7.7.7

I have used it to ask all kinds of questions, and so many times when I look at the answers the cards give me I laugh because the answer is spot on. You choose two cards – one is connected to Ramas story and the second is the divine guide. The first card represent a chapter in Ramas life and a section in that chapter and gives an indication. The second card indicate what verse in that chapter and the divine guide behind it.

Today I asked whether I would be able to keep my apartment since I struggle financially (and I know that talking about money is an even bigger taboo than sex). The answer I received was the following card:

Chapter 1: Removing obstacles.
Section 6: Rama and his brother journey home with their wives. A powerful opponent challenges Rama, but is won over.
Indication: An obstacle must be overcome to benefit from previous gains.
Divine Guide 3: Bharata (the power of responsibility). Verse 3: A happy return home.

Which made me laugh since my question was directly related to home and my apartment is certainly a benefit from previous gains.

What I really like is that the cards themselves give such complex answers, they tell a story with subtleties.

And like a friend of mine said: When you use it, it always comes down to bhakti no matter what the cards say.

Abscense

Every monday I look forward to the recent realizations of Dhanurdhara Swami. He has also written a nice experience of my Gurudeva, Narayana Maharaja. He has what I am lacking in – realizations. His newest post could as well have been written about what I’m experiencing now.

About a month ago, after making a mistake in not only how I was thinking about something, but in how I had reacted to it, and then seeing the anxiety it caused, I had a very strong realization that seemed to correct and complete my vision of the world. I was surprised because I was convinced that I was already seeing the world perfectly clear, but I had one doubt. This pattern has been repeating itself every year, often several times a year, for the last 42 years, since beginning Kṛṣṇa consciousness. I always think that I am seeing things clearly, until some upheaval, big or small, comes along that gives me a newer, more complete vision and with the same certainty as before. I often share this story with others with the background music of Goofy to express how hapless we are in walking the world with a vision of confidence, although destiny repeatedly turns our world on its head again and again.

I think my folly, however, is not unique, for until one’s mind is completely pure, it is the nature of the mind to see the world through a defective lens without even realizing one is looking through it. I think therefore my story should be, in a sense, everyone’s story on the spiritual path. Our natural confidence in how we see the world should be repeatedly shaken by destiny to help give us newer and higher visions of reality even though at the time we are probably not aware that we are seeing things through a distorted lens.

Why do we make God work so hard

I have received a new lens of the world, but it’s a rather grim one. What is the reason for our existence? If we look aside from the religious one but the material reason – it becomes clear. It’s for us humans to take care of each other, cooperation. Yet this world is described as a dangerous place, filled with unknown dangers and evil at every step. We intuitively understands that there’s truth in that, but why is it so? Because of humans.

Sure, we have natural disasters but humans are the reason the world is so dangerous Because we humans view each other with competition instead of cooperation. If we humans had begun helping each other out, caring for each other even if we are not family, then society would become different. If we could accept that a persons flaws without reacting to it and still be there and help within our capacity. Even when we don’t like a person – which probably would be most people over time.

My mother once said to me that when I died she wanted to have my TV. Would you say something like that to a person you love? Yet her dysfunction is nothing compared to a malignant narcissist. It’s being punched into me every day so many times that I am nothing. I have no value. I am worthless and unlovable.

Yet apparently there is still something valuable in me that Krishna wants. It’s the reason for my existence which unfortunately never seem to end.

I have a new lense of the world, but my vision has still not acclimatized. I don’t know who this new person is or are supposed to be. I have been broken, and I am sick of my troubles. Troubles are boring – everybody has them. Which is why I have such problems writing now. I have received a new lense, but I don’t know what to make of it.