nama om visnu-padaya radhikayah priyatmane
Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta narayana iti namine
“I worship the lotus feet of Srila Gurudeva, Sri Srimad Bhaktivedanta Narayan Goswami Maharaja who is very dear to Srimati Radhika.”
I wanted to write a blog about the experience of being on the spiritual path and the itty-gritty details of it. I see so many times devotees quote vedic verses and teachings with little understanding of what it entails or ability to follow even the simplest dealings like respectful communication with tolerance of the differences between people.
It’s such a high philosophy, but what does that help when one are having problems just dealing with the material world with just common decency?
When I search for spiritual books on themes that are on my mind, there are none to find. Themes like money, when chanting turns bad, how to stay connected year after year after year, grihasta life, realizing that one aren’t really that interested in spiritual life… but are unable to give it up for one second, loosing ones connection to Gurudeva.
There are certainly a lot of writing on all these themes, but they are spread around like small gems hidden in large books on other high-ended topics, while I’m still struggling on the small stuff.
The books and lectures all focus mostly on realized souls, far beyond me on the spiritual path. So I want to build a bridge between me which are so far down and the high teachings of the books.
That’s the bridge this blog will be about. It’s about my journey and my stumblings on this path which are many.
I find spiritual life difficult. If it was easy, there would be no people left in this material world.
So who am I?
I am a mid-thirties female living in Stavanger, Norway. I received harinama initiation by Srila Narayana Maharaja in 2002, and in 2004 I received diksa in Vrindavin during kartik. What a wonderful time that was.
I’m trying to juggle my job as an IT system administrator and my one year old son in Stavanger, Norway while at the same time take care of my spiritual needs. If I start neglecting my spiritual life, I become very unhappy. Srila Gour Govinda Maharaja has a quote: “The day that goes by without Krishna-katha, that is a very bad day”.
I couldn’t agree more.