Will I ever?

It’s Kartik now. It’s nine years last time I was there and I have been to Vrindavin three times. The last time I left Vrindavin, I was happy to leave. I felt relief to finally get home again.You see, the pollution got to me. The huge number of people, the austerities, the dust, pollution, the intensity.

The moment I got the feeling, I knew it was offensive and I was unable to do anything about it. I was unable to repent it. I knew that it will be a long time until I will be allowed back to Vrindavin.

If I will ever be allowed back, it will be with a completely different consciousness and appreciation. I will have to sincerely repent that feeling, and I will have to have a desire for that special Vrindavin Experience.

I wonder when that will be.

Stolen statues of Duryodhana, Balarama and Bhima recovered

cambodian_duryodhanaThere’s a nice article on a norwegian site about a thousand year old stolen statues of  Duryodhana, Balarama and Bhima has been recovered and taken back to Cambodia. The image above is of the three statues.

The statues are large, the one of Duryodhana is 158 cm tall (which is about my size). I suddenly picture myself standing among these statues and suddenly I’m at Kuruksethra where it all happened. Suddenly it looms on me that the setting of Bhagavad-gita is war. Imminent war of killing ones family member. How dramatic it is; furthermore, I’m a vegetarian because I don’t want to harm living beings, and here they are in a situation where they have to kill family members.

Just look at the wall hanging/painting behind those statues.

Appearance Day of Srila Bhaktivedanta Trivikrama Maharaja

Why do I keep on striving in my spiritual life when life is so hard? Today I got the sweet answer in a rememberance story from Kishori Mohan:

Today is the Appearance Day celebration of my spiritual uncle, Srila Bhaktivedanta Trivikrama Maharaja, the beloved Godbrother of my Gurudeva, Srila Bhaktivedanta Narayana Goswami Maharaja.

Here are some of my memories:

Once, Sudevi and Anu Radha were in his room and he was affectionately ‘harassing’ them with questions.

He asked them, “Why do you want to love Krsna?”

They answered, “Because He is beautiful!”

He said, “No, that is for You! Why do you want to love Krsna?”

They seemed perplexed and answered, “Because Gurudeva told us to!”

Sudevi saw me listening from outside and said, “Maharaja, my husband is outside. Ask him!”

So I had to enter the room. He was very strong in his classes, so I was a bit timid.

He asked me, “Why do you want to love Krsna?”

I replied, “I don’t know Maharaja. Please tell me!”

He responded, “Because it is your NATURE!”

He was so simple, yet so profound.

I loved his classes. They were a bit heavy, but I needed it. They always grounded me.

I remember in 1996, not many devotees were attending his classes. Srila Gurudeva told us that we should hear from him. He said something like, “He may look frightening, but actually, he’s very soft!”

Srila Gurudeva would always lovingly argue with him. Pujyapad BV Trivikrama Maharaja would say something like, “Candravali is the best devotee of Krsna.” And he would give his reasonings.
This would cause Srila Gurudeva to become very enthusiastic to prove the superiority of Srimati Radhika. I remember once that this conversation continued for quite a long time.
We were out on Parikrama at Rama Ghata, and it still continued.
They walked together to take acamana at Yamuna River and the arguing still continued. Finally, Srila Gurudeva jokingly said to him, “Anyhow, they all came to hear me speak, not you!” They were both laughing. Srila Gurudeva walked ahead and Maharaj was just laughing and shaking his head.

Later on, that same day, at Biharvan (where all the cows are), Maharaja sang Radhe Jaya Jaya Madhava Dayite, his eyes full of tears.

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Symptoms of Kali Yuga

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After the Great War Lord Krishna left Dwaraka to Spiritual world, King Yudhisthira was ruling the earth. His mighty brother Bhimasena was in charge of the welfare of the citizens in the kingdom. He used to help in solving the problems of people; hence people would come to him with grievances.

One day a person came and told Bhima that he noticed a strange thing that day. The fence he had erected around his filed had gained momentum and had ventured into other persons field. He requested Bhima to help him find out why it was happening so. Bhima had never heard a thing like that so he asked him to approach Yudhisthira in the evening durbar.

On the same day, another person came and told that he came across with a strange thing. He had a big pot with full of water and he had poured that water into small pots, amazingly when he tried to pour back the water from the small pots to the big one only half of the big pot was filled. The person was wondering what had happened to the other half quantity of water. Bhima not knowing what to say, he asked him to contact Yudhisthira.

Yet another person came to Bhima that day with a complaint that he happened to see a strange thing. A huge elephant could pass through the eye of the needle but to his surprise its tail got stuck in that hole. Bhima again referred him to Yudhisthira.

Another person came to Bhima and said that he saw big rock in the street and huge wrestlers in the locality could not move it an inch but a Sadhu who was passing by just waved his Palasa Danda (the staff of Palasa tree) and astonishingly the boulder moved. Bhima thinking that it has been a bad day for him since he could not fined solution to the weird happening, he referred them to Yudhisthira.

They all went to Yudhisthira and asked about these questions, then Yudhisthira said that, all these qualities shows that Dwapara Yuga is ending and Kali Yuga is near approaching and he explains ……

The first symptom is one of the fence is moving into other persons filed shows that people are not satisfied with what they have and are more interested to know about what others have and think of a way to acquire them either hook or crook.

The second symptom is the big pot with full of water when it is poured into small pots and pour back into big pot fills only half this means that a person can expect only 50% of love or affection or help from a person to whom he had shown love affection and had helped.

The third symptom of big elephant is going through a needle but the tail getting stuck, it means that henceforth people are ready to spend a lot of their earnings on sensual satisfaction but when it comes to philanthropy they do not spare even a little.

The fourth symptom is, big rock not moved by persons who are having lot of strength but a Sadhu could move it just by waving his Danda. This means that one can get rid of all their enormous and vast problems just by contemplating on the holy name of the Lord.

kaler dosha-nidhe rajann asti hy eko mahan gunah
kirtanad eva krishnasya mukta-sangah param vrajet

My dear King, although Kali-yuga is an ocean of faults, there is still one good quality about this age: Simply by chanting the name of Lord Sri Krsna, one can become free from material bondage and be promoted to the transcendental kingdom of Vaikunta.
SB (12.3.51)

Story taken from Back To Godhead India: https://www.facebook.com/btg.in